endlessly waitin….
maybe it is true that promises are meant to be broken……
give me the strength to keep believe in myself. cuz i cant trust myself. not anymo. i have lost me. my heart is sinking like a titanic. hard to breath. i try to fake a smile. but my face muscle cant move since i never taught them to lie.
How to explain colours to the blind? Sound to the deaf?
How to expect unexpected? And how to learn accept the unaccepted?
How to deal with something u expect but u cant accept?
How to fake a smile when your heart is crying?
How to love someone without hurting him?
How to fix a broken heart?
How to heal a sick soul?
How to keep on believe in someone’s promises without expecting them to fulfill it?
How to make someone happy when you are sad?
How to not cry even your chest is about to burst?
How to not hurt someone?
*Beep*
Text in.
Read : ” Papolah?”
Reply.
“Nak gi kelas dah…”
*Beep*
Text in.
Read: ” Bait2 jak..”
………………………………………………………..
Text in text out…
I love my handphone beeping cuz i knew it was you, it is you, and it will be you, cuz U are the only one that always text me. I kinda miss all that cuz u’ve been to the place where that i-will-follow-you-yellow-thingy is struggling to help me delivered my text message. We rarely text each other. Even rarely talk to each other. I miss u so bad. Yet, i cant do anything ’bout tat. And its drive me insane. I spend the whole night looking, staring, at ur pics. Pathetic? . I am.
To love is easy…to love again is hard.
Trust me.
Relationship are like glass..Sometimes it’s better 2 leave em broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together..
Kan?
*Statement sahaja*
Hypocrite. Define hypocrite.
” Cantek baju awak. Saya suka. Padan ngn awak. Cne awak beli?” Sambil senyum2 n pegang baju org yg dipuji tersebut tapi dalam hati “Baju tok kacak, tapi kain murahan dahla sik padan ngn nya. Lucu rupa”
“Oh..im sorry..its not you, its me. You are too good for me, i believe u deserve someone better than me” tapi dlm ati ” mun ko kaya tek, mok ku dgn kau”
” Hi karen* (bukan nama sebenar) ” sambil senyum, tapi dalam ati ” Si*l…terjmpa nya tok indh…”
” Ktk kacak gik dr nya bah..” convincing tone, tapi dlm ati ” sama jaik jak muka tak 2 ya”
OK..ya contoh2 hipokrit la bagi aku…Maksud, cakap tak serupa yang ada dalam hati. why say sorry if u dun feel sorry, why mok berkawan if still nganok dr belakang, why cant we be honest…………..?
I have not been inspired to write anything lately. My mind is a mess. I have a lots of things to think, to do, and lots of problems to solve……….
BUT
I am thankful. Thankful that I met u. Thankful that I have U in my life. Even on my hard days, u are the only one that capable to make me smile. Frankly speak, saya tak pasti if saya mampu membalas everything that u have done for me. I love u more and more each days.
Thanx for share me your meals, thanx tolong saya finish my meals, thanx sbb tak pernah jemu memujuk saya, thanx for ur advices, thanx for your care, thanx for willin to send me home, thanx for willin to share your tight time with me, thanx for your concern, thanx sbb bersabar with me, thanx sbb being sensible with me, thanx for compromising with demandin me, thanx for makin me ur priority, thanx cuz never give up chasin me even frm waterfront to satok, thanx for waiting for me habis keja even byk nyamok u never complain even a lil bit (oh..i feel like i wanna cry), thanx for always there to wipe my tears,…..my my..the thanx lists will never end…u have done so many things for me….saya? saya byk buat salah…thats all i have done FOR u…:(
sorry………..i love u so much risaib shah.
Lately…
i dunno why…evrything seem so wrong..so not right..
maybe hazy day makes my evrything blurry too…
Falling out of love, never been easy to me. As well as falling in love. Im not the type that easily fall in love with someone. After all the heart broken experience, its seem so much impossible to fall in and hurt again. But I DID somehow. I fall in love with someone that I never expect to be more than a friend. Maybe his big and kind heart heal my cold and sick heart, or maybe his silentness makes me hear something that i never heard before.
He remind me the feeling of being in love. He help me to start over again, and i start like i never start before. I dun remember, not even once, about my past relationship, i almost forgot that i have been hurt before, and I even think that I never really have any relationship before him. He is the only one i have all my life.
I was really scared at first, to have this kind of feeling again, I am so scared to be in love again. After all, karma doesn’t smile for me. I always am the one tat suffered by all this love thing. But somehow, looking into his eyes, give me strength. I want him as much as a shopaholic wants to shop, i want him as much as a drug addict wants his drug, and i want him as much as my heart needs blood to pump. And i dunno why i want him that much juz by looking into his eyes.
I almost don’t remember how’s it feel when we fall in love.. and I dunno how its feel when someone tell u that they cant live without u, hows it feel when someone call u juz to say they miss ur voice…BUT he did give me this feeling, this undescribable feeling of falling in love. And evrytime our eyes meet, my heart start and stop beating at the same time, my voice even stuttered when he look straight into my eyes. And it feels like magic when i almost fall for him evry single day of my life now. And i’m dying to know what spell did he cast on me to make me smile even on my hard days.
But i dunno if i can make him feel the same way too, n i dun really know if he does feel the same way as i do. How i wish i can make him happy as much as I do when I am with him…
I dunno any magic or spell, I googled evry love spell, even learn from the charmed ones, but evrything is soooo lame. Even my ocean size love for him, is not enuff. I dunno if i have tried evrything, but i knew that i have tried my very best to make US happen. I love US, n love u evn mo~
dis is my love personality test result. whew~ i do think dis is soooooo fucking true.
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that’s why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don’t just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person’s personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn’t meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
Inner Personality
Your kindness is your charm – you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.
On Friendship
You value your friendships: 60%
You love your friends very much – so much so that it’s actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody’s friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.
dis is analysis about bob, my supercalifragilisticexpialidocious boyfren. I called him and ask him few questions, and this is his result…jeng jeng jeng..:)
Your man is a lot of fun to be with. His talk is charming and because of this he always seems to be surrounded by girls. You’ll just have to live with this and not let it bother you. If you let him know you’re jealous, it’s likely that he would turn his back on you without too many second thoughts. To be with him, you have to give him plenty of room to move, trust him, and allow him to be independent. You should also remember to be independent yourself. He enjoys going out to parties and likes you to have fun along with him too, so make the most of his love of life.
whoa……ok..:)
Relationship Personality
You and him would be typical young lovers. It would not be all sweet and romantic if you got together, sometimes you would argue or get confused, but those elements would only make your relationship more exciting. At the moment you are probably assuming that he likes you, but sometimes you might not be so sure. Don’t worry, you can be sure that he also feels the same way. When both of you sense special feeling towards each other, your relationship is certainly growing. What you should do is try to express your feelings a little more and learn more about him.
Try to get ur personality test here:
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
I’ve done mine. And…whoaaaaahh…macam betul…
Here’s my results. 
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that’s why you’ll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don’t focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It’s time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
